It’s amazing how I go from zero to like ten friends the day an assignment is due when I have it finished. Sigh
I used to be 110% committed to God. My whole life was focused on that, and it defined me. I’m not sure what happened. I know I got lazy. I hated the Christian bubble. Still do. Looking back, something was always wrong. I was usually sad about something or felt like the world was out to get me. So I stopped. To me, the Christian world is an emotional one, based on feelings. The world of Jesus was different. Authentic. But I gave it up.
And I put my value in something else. Education. I wanted to be smart. That lasted for about a week in college, when I realized that intelligence wasn’t really something I was gifted with. Had, yes, but not in excess.
So I put my identity in a relationship. One with a poor foundation, at that. I’ve never cried so much as during the past two years, but I’ve never laughed so much either. I was happy for the most part. And then he moved.
Now what? I have nothing. I can’t stand my family, I don’t really have any friends… I just don’t know.
People keep telling me that we should break it off, that being long-distance will make us miserable. And it will.
Just the thought of breaking up, though, makes me dissolve in tears. I can’t even…
I have so many reasons to be happy, and one reason to be sad. Why does that one reason overwhelm all the others?
I got a full-ride scholarship until I graduate.
My boyfriend leaves in one month.
I’m a successful student, and my future looks promising.
What if he finds another girl?
I have an internship at the lab of my dreams this summer.
I won’t be able to see him for six months at a time for the next 10 years.
I get to watch my sister get married in a little more than a week.
What if he decides he doesn’t want to date me anymore?
I finally get to live on my own.
What if I just have to watch our relationship fade into nothing?
I changed one of my majors, and couldn’t be happier.
What if he just forgets about me?
Just reblog to enter to win. I will pick a winner on Jan 27 (because 127 is prime - and 271 is prime for those that write dd/mm).
"The Magic Cube is a redesign of the familiar Rubik’s cube. Unlike the traditional Rubik’s Cube, the faces are the same color and are inscribed with numerals, each forming part of a number series that holds historic significance. It is precision engineered and can be fabricated from a variety of different materials including wood, plastic and metal. More than just an intriguing puzzle; the Magic Cube is also intended to stimulate interest in fundamental concepts of number theory, serve as a beautiful accessory, or a tactile device to hone your logic skills.”
The six number series include:
- Triangle Series
- Prime Number Series
- Digits of Pi
- Magic Square
- Fibonacci Series
- Digits of E