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Life of Just Another

It’s amazing how I go from zero to like ten friends the day an assignment is due when I have it finished. Sigh

Reading some of my journal entries from high school. CRINGE. CRINGE. SO MUCH CRINGE!!!

seriously though like all i want is a friend

I guess this is a conversation that should’ve happened two years ago, sigh.


"The foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men."

I used to be 110% committed to God. My whole life was focused on that, and it defined me. I’m not sure what happened. I know I got lazy. I hated the Christian bubble. Still do. Looking back, something was always wrong. I was usually sad about something or felt like the world was out to get me. So I stopped. To me, the Christian world is an emotional one, based on feelings. The world of Jesus was different. Authentic. But I gave it up.

And I put my value in something else. Education. I wanted to be smart. That lasted for about a week in college, when I realized that intelligence wasn’t really something I was gifted with. Had, yes, but not in excess.

So I put my identity in a relationship. One with a poor foundation, at that. I’ve never cried so much as during the past two years, but I’ve never laughed so much either. I was happy for the most part. And then he moved.

Now what? I have nothing. I can’t stand my family, I don’t really have any friends… I just don’t know.

Seriously, like is EVERYONE getting married?

Funny how when I went to PCS, I pretty much hated it. Now I kind of miss it. Well… Certain parts ;)

People keep telling me that we should break it off, that being long-distance will make us miserable. And it will.

Just the thought of breaking up, though, makes me dissolve in tears. I can’t even…

I have so many reasons to be happy, and one reason to be sad. Why does that one reason overwhelm all the others?

I got a full-ride scholarship until I graduate.

My boyfriend leaves in one month.

I’m a successful student, and my future looks promising.

What if he finds another girl?

I have an internship at the lab of my dreams this summer.

I won’t be able to see him for six months at a time for the next 10 years.

I get to watch my sister get married in a little more than a week.

What if he decides he doesn’t want to date me anymore?

I finally get to live on my own.

What if I just have to watch our relationship fade into nothing?

I changed one of my majors, and couldn’t be happier.

What if he just forgets about me?


I swear I’m way more bitter than I used to be =(



Just reblog to enter to win. I will pick a winner on Jan 27 (because 127 is prime - and 271 is prime for those that write dd/mm). 

"The Magic Cube is a redesign of the familiar Rubik’s cube. Unlike the traditional Rubik’s Cube, the faces are the same color and are inscribed with numerals, each forming part of a number series that holds historic significance. It is precision engineered and can be fabricated from a variety of different materials including wood, plastic and metal. More than just an intriguing puzzle; the Magic Cube is also intended to stimulate interest in fundamental concepts of number theory, serve as a beautiful accessory, or a tactile device to hone your logic skills.”

The six number series include:

  • Triangle Series
  • Prime Number Series
  • Digits of Pi
  • Magic Square
  • Fibonacci Series
  • Digits of E

Finding a strange, not so appropriate GIF on Imgur and sending the link to your sister instead of your friend D=

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